Tuesday, December 21, 2004
On some level, I always knew this, but I've recently come to the stark realization that I'm not anywhere close to being the perfect mother. If someone came to my front door at noon, I'd still be in my pajamas, unshowered. I may have had something to drink since I woke up, but nothing to eat. My 3-year-old daughter would be eating Easy Mac for the fourth day in a row (hey, it's what she asks for and I'm not complaining). I'd probably be carrying the baby around or feeding her. Having a baby attached to your breast for 20 minutes every 2 hours may not seem like a lot, but to the breastfeeding mother, it seems like the child is eating all the time.
I'm trying to get onto a schedule with the kids, but right now, I'm just feeling lucky if everything gets done and I get showered before my husband gets home. My goal lately has been to get a shower while it's still morning. I put Arden in her crib and turn on the mobile and run into the shower. It's not the most relaxing way of doing things, but at least it's getting done. What I'm trying to do is get to the point where when the girls are taking afternoon naps (at the same time, I hope and pray), I can sit and relax and do something just for me. I don't want to feel like I have to spend this time doing more laundry or unloading the dishwasher so I can get the pile of dirty dishes out of the sink.
Having two kids is a lot different than having one. Especially when one is mobile and can undo everything that I do in a day. I remember telling people that I always wanted 3 or 4 kids and I was struggling with my decision to not have any more since I was so sick this time. Physically, I know I really can't do it again. Emotionally, I really would love to go through the whole thing again...especially labor and having a brand new baby. But now, I'm going to kick my emotional side's butt and just be practical. Do I really want to go through the whole new baby thing again? I don't think so. And if I stick with 2, I can get rid of the minivan and trade it in for something a little more stylish.
I love my kids. Here's to not spreading the love too thin!
I'm trying to get onto a schedule with the kids, but right now, I'm just feeling lucky if everything gets done and I get showered before my husband gets home. My goal lately has been to get a shower while it's still morning. I put Arden in her crib and turn on the mobile and run into the shower. It's not the most relaxing way of doing things, but at least it's getting done. What I'm trying to do is get to the point where when the girls are taking afternoon naps (at the same time, I hope and pray), I can sit and relax and do something just for me. I don't want to feel like I have to spend this time doing more laundry or unloading the dishwasher so I can get the pile of dirty dishes out of the sink.
Having two kids is a lot different than having one. Especially when one is mobile and can undo everything that I do in a day. I remember telling people that I always wanted 3 or 4 kids and I was struggling with my decision to not have any more since I was so sick this time. Physically, I know I really can't do it again. Emotionally, I really would love to go through the whole thing again...especially labor and having a brand new baby. But now, I'm going to kick my emotional side's butt and just be practical. Do I really want to go through the whole new baby thing again? I don't think so. And if I stick with 2, I can get rid of the minivan and trade it in for something a little more stylish.
I love my kids. Here's to not spreading the love too thin!
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